Its really tough to earn money on these trying global financial crisis. I
worked 16-19 hours a day with NO DAYOFF - including saturdays, sundays, Christmas and New Years for almost 8 years now. I barely sleep of 4-5 hours a day whatever my health condition is. I have been paying credit card debts for 8 years now with so much compounding rolling stone effect on interest. Im very tired working but i must keep doing this for the sake of my family. Even at sick times where i have flu or trangkaso -im still infront of my computer.
Many years ago, while my wife work in the MalinoWater system company, im left but with NO choice but to baby seat my youngest daughter for several years while at the same time always looking for some ways to make money online.
I had very little sleep as much as 3-5 hours per day for many years. Im trapped like a quick sand to my credit cards debt that up to now im still paying. My sugar level went down while Blood pressure went up. I dont mined. I dont know where to go and who to approach. Whenver any of my credit cards are due, Im rolling like crazy on my desk. Worrying where will get funds to pay? Wayback then, im only earning P15,000 per month. At the same time my card interest alone is around
P10,000-P20,000 per month just for interest.
In the middle of the night i cried like a Sea Monster! I want to die! if my life will payoff for everything!Who will help me? Maybe if i approach any of my brothers and sisters and let them know of my situation - they -
on their own will will offer a lending hand! Im quite skeptical because I never done this from them. Asking financial help from them.
So, in short, though not directly - I let my brothers and sisters know that im broke. And im in great danger not only my self but also my family. Im willing to sell everything i have just to offset all my liabilities.
But even if i sell everything and nothng left - Just NOT enough!
Even if pay for my body and soul just NOT enough! I also ask a kin close to me that i will take "house janitor for life" as my work as long as you help me but i only got"im sorry smile" as an answer,,,. But nobody want to get closed to me because of my situation. I feel i have a "
nakakadiring sakit" that everytime i approach someone - while I'm walking toward them - they are walking away from me!
But, wait, i have brothers and sisters who have the financial capability to help me. They are building their houses. Maybe i can ask them to help me and just return the money when im capable .
My family knows that im bankcrupt - so why they will help me when they know i can NOT pay them back? Logical? Its really very very hard for me to ask help from them. Well' - i did somehow ask from them. But the sad, more humiliating truth is "Why would they lend me?
After all its my debt? I spend them on my own? then interest ballooned - so its my fault? YES! i heard something like these from them with a slap on my face.
I know what i have done. NOW - i need help.
I DID NOT GET HELP from anybody to offset my debts. Up to now - i need to work very hard! Every centavos, very seconds - 19 hours a day im awake to make money!
Sweat and Blood - im all alone to solve my problem. This is the lesson i learned!
Whenever there's a happy gathering - i can NOT attend. Why? Because i must earn and earn! Nobody will work for me and pay for my debts but me. If i do - go to social gathering and occasions - will those people where i attend to, will lend me money to pay my bills? NO!!
All the pain! All the hunger! all the "Puyat"! From dawn to sunrise. From sunrise to sunset. Until in the middle of the night till early dawn im seated in front of my computer working - looking for some ways how to earn.
I never had the time to watch a 2 hour movie, or any 30 minute primetime TV show. I never had the time to go to some recreations that others are doing. Its really hard and busy and tough time for me.
Sad to say - up now - NO PAIN NO GLORY! I must keep working and working with NO minute or seconds to waste. Life is not how long you live - !Its how well you live - spending every seconds of your life to solving problems without quitting. No time to sit chatting - no time to answer emails - no time to talk non-sense! This is a very heavy cross on my shoulder. Good thing i learned to carry it on the lighter side.
